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Sunday, March 31st, 2013
1:32 pm
Hm, I've been leaving comments on fanfiction lately, but half of the time, I get this:

Bildschirmfoto 2013-03-31 um 13.27.36

Anyone knows what this means?
It's annoying to spend time to think about and then writing a comment, only to have it marked as spam >.<°
Sunday, May 4th, 2008
6:07 pm
Unlocking all fanfiction
After not updating for almost one year, I decided that I'll unlock all my fanfictions.

"ACX8845" and "What did you expect with hair like yours" won't be continued.

My fandom has shifted from J-rock and Visual Kei to J-pop and Japanese movies (like Death Note ^_^), therefore I can't gather enough motivation to write more.
I am truly sorry.
Thursday, March 22nd, 2007
10:36 pm
ACX8845 chapter 13
Title: ACX8845
Chapters: 13/?
Author: pankeeki & nitzi
Genre: AU
Ratings: NC-17
Pairings/Characters: Die x Shinya, Kaoru x Toshiya, Aoi x Uruha, Kaoru x Jin
Synopsis: The outsider Shinya has an intelligence that is far beyond the average. His skills in programming, however, soon get him into danger as he becomes the target of a govermental organization who wants his talent...
Disclaimer: Don’t own them....
Comments: well... it has been several months... *hides* during this time I fell in love with KAT-TUN while being in Japan so I decided to put my fav. boy in there too. And of course torture him a bit ^^

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Current Mood: content
Monday, December 11th, 2006
7:40 pm
how could it come to this...
It's all spider_tears' fault!! She had this thingie posted at her lj....

so I did that test too....











That's so not me... O.o I didn't cheat in that test though...
*blush*

Current Mood: embarrassed
Tuesday, December 5th, 2006
7:40 pm
Title: What did you expect with hair like yours?
Band: Gazette
Pairing: Ruki x Uruha
Author: nitzi
Rating: NC-17
Resume: Uruha lived a peaceful life in the small village near the southern border of the country. But today is different! The emperor is staying for one night on his journey to the south. However, the first meeting between Uruha and his highness is tense...
Comments: posting it again because it got lost on gazette_yaoi as I didn't add any tags...

I pictured Uruha and Ruki like this when I wrote it:
Ruki
Uruha

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Current Mood: cheerful
Monday, December 4th, 2006
6:46 pm
MORE NC- 17!!!!
Title: What did you expect with hair like yours? - Reita x Aoi sidestory ONESHOT
Band: Gazette
Pairing: Reita x Aoi
Author: nitzi
Rating: NC-17
Warnings: half-NC, unbetaed
Resume: The story about how Reita made Aoi submit to him - a sidestory to my fanfiction "What did you expect with hair like yours?"
Comments: 7 pages!!! *faints*

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Current Mood: artistic
Thursday, May 25th, 2006
10:24 am
Neeee, yesterday wasn't fun >.<
There were way too many people there. One couldn't even dance!
Then a person smashed their cocktail in front of my legs and sliced my toe with one of the shards...
and my other foot was sticky with the cocktail...
So I made my way home at about 2 o'clock, walking.

But the time before going out was fun!!
I was... a bit drunk... ^^°

see for yourself!

another bottle please!
*hick* I cannnn alll walk... seee...? *hick*

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Wednesday, May 24th, 2006
10:11 pm
12:20 pm
Title: What did you expect with hair like yours?
Band: Gazette
Pairing: Ruki x Uruha
Author: nitzi
Rating: NC-17
Resume: Uruha lived a peaceful life in the small village near the southern border of the country. But today is different! The emperor is staying for one night on his journey to the south. However, the first meeting between Uruha and his highness is tense...
Comments: next chappy, unbetaed...

I pictured Uruha and Ruki like this when I wrote it:
Ruki
Uruha

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Sunday, May 7th, 2006
12:06 pm
my fanfiction
Sooo how to start this...?

Well some of you might have noticed that chapter 3 posted in gazette_yaoi differs from the one I posted at my lj. It's because the one in gazette_yaoi is censored.
I don't know what else to do.
From now on everybody can read my fanfiction. The censored one.
They will be able to follow the storyline.

To thank those who have comment I will write more NC-17 scenes just for them, to express my thankfulness. I'm such a mean person, ne?
So downright hateful...
It's just that I have a hot temper and every bit of restricting my personal decision making makes it flare. However, I really love the gazette_yaoi community and don't want to be banned from it. Therefore I will of course abide by its orders.

Before I restricted my first fanfiction, I asked my readers if they found it fair that only those who commented would be able to read the sex scenes. Almost all of them found it fair. So I didn't really think about it anymore when I posted it here. Sorry!

Comments are my incentive to write. I'm thankful for each one I receive.
Somehow now I regret ever having posted this fanfiction.

now, my dear readers, thank you to all for having read my pathetic excuse. I hope this won't piss you off too much! m(_ _)m
Tuesday, May 2nd, 2006
9:01 am
Title: ACX8845
Chapters: 11/?
Author: pankeeki & nitzi
Genre: AU
Ratings: NC-17
Pairings/Characters: Die x Shinya, Kaoru x Toshiya
Synopsis: The outsider Shinya has an intelligence that is far beyond the average. His skills in programming, however, soon get him into danger as he becomes the target of a govermental organization who wants his talent...
Disclaimer: Don’t own them....
Comments: Sooo, 5,5 pages and with a lemon. Uruha and Aoi are having a servere fight, Shinya has to cope with a perverted Die and the assassination is going to take place. This chapter includes rape (verrrrry short) so don't read it you are umcomfortable with it!!

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Current Mood: bouncy
Wednesday, April 26th, 2006
8:56 pm
Title: What did you expect with hair like yours?
Band: Gazette
Pairing: Ruki x Uruha
Author: nitzi
Rating: NC-17
Resume: Uruha lived a peaceful life in the small village near the southern border of the country. But today is different! The emperor is staying for one night on his journey to the south. However, the first meeting between Uruha and his highness is tense...
Comments: next chappy, unbetaed...

I pictured Uruha and Ruki like this when I wrote it:
Ruki
Uruha

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Current Mood: crushed
Friday, April 14th, 2006
12:35 pm
Title: What did you expect with hair like yours?
Band: Gazette
Pairing: Ruki x Uruha
Author: nitzi
Rating: NC-17
Resume: Uruha lived a peaceful life in the small village near the southern border of the country. But today is different! The emperor is staying for one night on his journey to the south. However, the first meeting between Uruha and his highness is tense...
Comments: So, I decided to continue this fanfiction, just because it's SO EASY to write! It almost flows from my hand! I'll post it at the gazette_yaoi community when I have a few more chapters. Now it's only for those who discover it amongst the thousand fanfictions that are thrown onto lj every week and who happen to be on my friends list! ^______________^ *loves all her readers*

I pictured Uruha and Ruki like this when I wrote it:
Ruki
Uruha

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Current Mood: horny
Tuesday, April 11th, 2006
5:22 pm
Title: ACX8845
Chapters: 7/?
Author: pankeeki & nitzi
Genre: AU
Ratings: NC-17
Pairings/Characters: Die x Shinya, Kaoru x Toshiya
Synopsis: The outsider Shinya has an intelligence that is far beyond the average. His skills in programming, however, soon get him into danger as he becomes the target of a govermental organization who wants his talent...
Disclaimer: Don’t own them.... ;_;
Comments: This chapter is really long, 5 pages! It contains RAPE, hide and seek, and a lot of other stuff. If you're not comfortable with this, don't read it!! It's NC-17, so friends-only!

Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6

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Current Mood: energetic
Monday, January 16th, 2006
7:55 pm
Hyper, hyper
Ahh! I decided not to sleep today. Tomorrow is the exam and I will visit my cousin to learn all night long. Then we'll go to the exam directly.
I even swallowed a coffein pill. But I'm going to need more of them. However, it's already kicking in and I'm starting to feel hyper.
I also need to buy coke. Coke mixed with instant coffee is the best "keeping awake"-drug.
Wish me luck. If I can still walk tomorrow I'm going to write the epilogue!!! *bows*

Current Mood: hyper
Saturday, January 7th, 2006
9:37 pm
LAST CHAPTER - 21!!
Title: untitled Kaoru x Toshiya fanfiction
Chapters: 21/21
Author: nitzi
Genre: AU
Ratings: NC-17
Pairings/Characters: Toshiya x Kaoru, Die x Shinya
Resume: When yakuza boss Kaoru is witnessed selling weapons by a young orphan girl, he commands one of his men to get rid of her. However, after waiting and waiting for his man to come back, he decides to check what is taking him so long, only to find him knocked out and the girl gone. Who helped her and dared to defy Kaoru? The yakuza is fuming and wants to hunt the mysterious stranger down. But as soon as he lays his eyes on him, he only has one wish: to possess this black haired beauty. In this chapter Kaoru and Toshiya make peace and Die and Shina take their relationship to the next level.

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Current Mood: jubilant
6:09 pm
finished!
so, just finished the last chapter. I'll post it as soon as it's beta-ed.
An epilogue and side story will follow.
But the main story it finished.
hurray! My first finished fanfiction!!!!
*dances*

Current Mood: content
Wednesday, January 4th, 2006
12:08 am
Beta-ed
freakyne55 was so kind to beta my fanfiction and correct my mistakes so everybody should be able to understand it now. Thank you so much again, freakyne55!!
The next chapter will be online tomorrow because my stupid little brother closed the Microsoft Word window today WITHOUT saving the contents so all that I've written today was gone... Don't worry, I've already strangled him for that.... >___<
I will write it again tomorrow!! *promise*
Sunday, January 1st, 2006
10:27 pm
Gazette fanfiction - yes or no? just a drabble !
Title: What did you expect with hair like yours?
Band: Gazette
Pairing: Ruki x Uruha
Author: nitzi
Rating: R till now, in later chapters NC-17
Resume: Uruha lived a peaceful life in the small village near the southern border of the country. But today is different! The emperor is staying for one night on his journey to the south. However, the first meeting between Uruha and his highness is tense...
Comments: Hmmm...
I've been writing the start of a Gazette fanfiction, featuring Ruki x Uruha. After finishing the first chapter I realized that its VERY similar to my Kaoru x Toshiya fanfiction.
I'm not even sure whether I want to continue it. I have so little time lately!!!
But I decided to post it anyway.
It's friends only because it's not even sure that it'll be continued.

I pictured Uruha and Ruki like this when I wrote it:
Ruki
Uruha

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Current Mood: energetic
Tuesday, December 20th, 2005
9:27 pm
Title: untitled Kaoru x Toshiya fanfiction
Chapters: 16/?
Author: nitzi
Genre: AU
Ratings: NC-17
Pairings/Characters: Toshiya x Kaoru
Resume: When yakuza boss Kaoru is witnessed selling weapons by a young orphan girl, he commands one of his men to get rid of her. However, after waiting and waiting for his man to come back, he decides to check what is taking him so long, only to find him knocked out and the girl gone. Who helped her and dared to defy Kaoru? The yakuza is fuming and wants to hunt the mysterious stranger down. But as soon as he lays his eyes on him, he only has one wish: to possess this black haired beauty. In this chapter the situation escalates and Kaoru loses his mind with jealousy.....
Comments: rape in this so friendy only!

Disclaimer: Dir en grey don't belond to me and I am not making money with this fiction. It is for enjoyment purposes only!
Thank you freakyne55 for being my beta!

WARNING: THIS CHAPTER CONTAINS RAPE! IF YOU ARE NOT COMFORTABLE WITH THIS, DON'T READ IT!

The apartment was silent when Kaoru arrived.
Toshiya was nowhere to be seen.

The boy was sitting in front of his make-up table, trying to redo the make-up Shinya had showed him today. In his opinion, he was a natural talent in make-up, considering how fast he was learning. Applying some more powder to his T-zone he glanced into the mirror and winced as a second face looked back at him- his master’s face. It seemed strange; it held no expression at all!
“You are so beautiful!” he said in a dead voice. Toshiya shivered. What was wrong with Kaoru?
“So beautiful…” Gently the yakuza touched his cheek, caressing it.
Toshiya backed away. Kaoru looked as if he was on the verge of madness.
“Kaoru?”
“Shhhh, don’t speak, whore, don’t spoil the false idyll…”
“Kaoru, you are scaring me… What is the matter with you…?”
Kaoru’s hand wandered over his face to his neck. Suddenly his grip tightened, cutting off Toshiya’s air supply.
“I told you what would happen if you cheated on me…”
“I….I didn’t cheat on you...” Toshiya croaked.
“Liar!!!” Kaoru suddenly screamed, and backhanded him across the face. Toshiya fell from the chair onto the hard floor. With wide eyes, he looked up at the yakuza.
Kaoru seized Toshiya’s blue-black hair and pulled him up to his eye level.
“How can somebody like you – a slut like you, a dirty little whore – cause me so much pain?” he asked almost sadly.
“I don’t know what you are talking about!”
“Does the name Takeshi ring a bell?”
Toshiya paled. Kaoru found out about the pearls! Shame and indignity welled up inside of him, and he lowered his head.
Kaoru, however, saw this as proof for Toshiya’s bad conscience.
He let go of his hair and threw Toshiya back on the floor, only to pull him up again and yank him onto the bed.
It was at this point that all the signals went off inside Toshiya’s head. He blocked.
With all his strength, he rammed his heels into the carpet to stop the forceful dragging.
“No! This is a misunderstanding!”
“Let me check your ass! Show me how he fucked you!”
A voice replayed in his head: “Tell me, how does he fuck you?”
“Noooooo! Let go!”
Toshiya dug his nails into Kaoru’s arm and pulled them downwards.
“Owww!”
Spinning around, Kaoru slapped Toshiya for the second time. The boy stumbled backwards, then spun around and made a dash to the door.
Kaoru launched at him, throwing him to the floor, but not for long, as Toshiya rammed his knee into Kaoru’s groin.
“Damn!” Toshiya used this little distraction to continue his flight, but Kaoru grabbed his ankles and brought him down again. They fought; Toshiya using all the tricks he learned on the street, but Kaoru – hurting people for a living – had the advantage as usual.
After 5 minutes, Kaoru had Toshiya pinned under his weight. This time he didn’t waste any time but ripped down Toshiya’s pants along with his boxers.
Toshiya cried out.
“Kaoru! Stop! Get to your senses!”
“My senses are completely clear, my whore. Now I’m going to teach you a lesson about possession rules….”
Impatiently he tore the pants, tying the struggling Toshiya’s wrists with the shreds.
“Kaoru, you idiot! What did I do?”
“What did you do? What did YOU do??? How can you ask this so innocently, slut? You were fucking around with Takeshi behind my back! How much did he pay you for it? 100? 1000? Or did you do him for free because my dick couldn’t satisfy you anymore?!”
Toshiya’s head was humming. What was this person talking about? How could he treat him this way and destroy all the trust Toshiya had had in him?
Wetness was gathering at the corners of his eyes.
“Aw, don’t cry, Toshiya-chan…” Kaoru spat the “chan”.
“You’re gonna get this every day from now on! If I can’t get you the friendly way – fine, then I’ll do it the hard way. If I don’t get you, nobody will!”
Shouting out the last sentence he pushed in three fingers at once – no lubrication, no preparation.
Toshiya’s eyes widened to the size of saucers. Such pain! He didn’t even know that such pain existed!
“Aahhhh!”
“What? Still not enough? How many cocks did you have in there the last few days, when I didn’t watch you?”
He rammed in a fourth finger.
Toshiya’s upper body arched.
“Kaoru! Kaoru! Kaoru! Stop! Kaoru! Don’t do it! Please, Kaoru!”
But Kaoru was deaf to his pleas.
Amongst his screams Toshiya thought he heard the sound of a zipper and then – the world turned black with pain, then white.
He felt something inside of him shatter, and the shards pierced his insides, causing him pain he thought he would never experience.
Kaoru’s face blurred; he couldn’t see clearly because of the tears which were running down his face non-stop.
Kaoru thrust and thrust into the motionless body taking out all his anger on the boy.
But… something felt wrong as Kaoru looked at Toshiya’s face.
He thought he would feel better now, hurting Toshiya and letting him feel the same pain he was feeling, but instead of dwindling, the pain only increased.
It felt as if every thrust that impaled Toshiya’s body was impaling his as well.
And Toshiya’s expression… It looked so utterly disappointed. At him.
No, Kaoru couldn’t do that. With a jerk he pulled out of the boy’s body. Toshiya only twitched a bit when he felt the source of his pain leave his body.
What was coming now? Would Kaoru beat him up? Mutilate him? Kill him? Rape him a second time?
Kaoru stood and looked at Toshiya in shock. What had he done?
Toshiya was lying there, crying silently, blood and sperm trickling out of his torn anus.
“Toshiya…” he whispered, his voice wavering.
Suddenly Kaoru felt as if he was losing his mind.
Grabbing his coat he fled, leaving Toshiya on the floor and slamming the door behind him, not bothering to lock it.
He needed advice now!
With shaking hands, he dialled Die’s number…..

[Kaoru’s apartment]
Slowly, Toshiya pulled himself up, limping to the telephone.
Still crying, he dialled a certain number.
A tired voice answered.
“Hello, this is Shinya, you’ve just woken me up so this better be a good reason…!”
“Shinya…” Toshiya whispered, not sure if Shinya had heard him.
“Hello, who is speaking?”
“Shinya…” Toshiya tried a second time, his consciousness fading.
“Toshiya? Is that you? Toshiya! What’s the matter? Are you ok? Toshiya? Answer me!”
“Save me…” Toshiya breathed out, dropping the phone as he fainted.
“Toshiya! Toshiya! Can you hear me? Toshiya, answer me! Hold on a minute, I’ll be over in an instant! Toshiya! Hold on……”

******TBC
AN.: *unsure* How did you like it? I know it's heavy but I had to make it credible.... All Toshiya fans: Don't hate me now! *runs and hides*

Current Mood: guilty
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